Oh No…
Tagged as: Dec 12Don’t you hate the feeling that you get right after you realize that you’ve been caught doing something that you didn’t want to do? It’s that feeling where your blood runs cold for a second. Yeah, I don’t like it either.
Even if it’s something pretty innocuous and unimportant, I think that that I can definitely still get that feeling. And that is no good at all. But at least it teaches us that we should just not be doing whatever we’re doing in the first place.
Then you go through the progression of
- I am so embarrassed/ashamed.
- I cannot believe that I did that.
- I hate myself for doing that.
- I am resolved to never ever do that again.
so what did you do bro??? was it something illegal?? cuz if it was, way to go!! hahah
Haha no it wasn’t illegal. Although I get similar feelings when I commit traffic violations and think that I’ve been caught. Like blowing a red and then seeing a cop car sitting at the light a few weeks ago. Luckily he either didn’t see it or didn’t care to make chase.
What I did was just…stupid and makes me look like a creep/stalker. Lovely, huh?
Feeling shame and guilt is not fun at all. In fact shame is one of the most harmful emotions there is. If you can, forgive yourself and yes, not do it again if it was indeed something to be ashamed of. We ARE human and I’m not sure what you did but it sounds like you succumbed to some perhaps human curiosity. I’ve done things that AS I WAS DOING THEM I knew they were wrong in some way and yeah, you just hope you don’t get caught! Nothing illegal but nothing to highlight, that is for sure!
Sounds like you definitely learned something.
Yeah I can imagine that shame would be one of the hardest emotions to deal with. Haha you’re spot on when you say that I just did it because of some curiosity.
I guess it’s always a chance to learn when something goes wrong!
One thing that I found when I’ve done something shameful is that I am less judgmental when I hear a similar story or even stories where people are casting all sorts of stones at someone. When I was young and inexperienced and critically idealistic, I thought, “Oh, I would NEVER do THAT. THAT would mean I was a bad person.”
Then I did THAT and well, I felt ashamed but really, I am NOT a bad person, just human. Having succumbed to “temptation” I know that there is always more to a story.
I am still idealistic but I try not to be critical in my idealism - that is, hold myself and others to some lofty standard. We all do the best we can with what we have and if we’re open, we may not only get help from others, we may accept that help or guidance.
It’s probably pretty true that it’s easy to start to compare oneself to other people. But at the same time, I think that there is definitely a place for having an absolute standard, which we all need to be held up against.
As for me, it’s very true that I should minimize comparisons with other people.
I’m pretty sure that we differ in some of our opinions since I actually do not believe in the goodness of man but that mankind is in fact depraved and evil. Thankfully, I also think that Jesus (how appropriate considering that it’s Christmas season) is the answer.
I appreciate the insight into your thoughts and opinions. It’s pretty cool that you’re able to allow others to see them simply by your posts and comments, and I’m glad for it.
i like the new layout
…and everything you’ve ever blogged.
Haha I’m glad that you enjoy the new theme. It was my foray into web design, and I’m fairly satisfied with the result as well as with the knowledge that I gained because of it.
Have you really been reading everything that I’ve blogged? Somehow I think that you’re joshing with me because this theme has been around for a couple of months now. Well, unless you are a magical and awesome RSS subscriber.